okay i've decided not to sleep despite the splitting headache. cos i predict that it'll worsen after i wake up. anyway, hmm many things have happened these few days. went for the 2 days training as a promoter at the SIRS. really didnt know such a company exists at all. LOL. anyway the first day was alright. i'm so glad that joanne's our teacher for the first day. and i really have to be grateful to her for closing her one eye for me. hehs. the second day was hell. stupid chiffon cake. bleagh. the assessment was.. haha. i got nervous while speaking halfway and it got rather obvious. lol. promoting is really not my type. haha and i have to actually promote for eleven days this month. and i was so unluckily allocated to a branch not anywhere near my house. bedok's actually not near to my place, considering the fact that i have to pay much more for transport starting from today. it actually feels weird when i tapped my ez link card on the reader just now. haha. different sound. different price. different feeling. lol. and of all outlets, i was so unluckily put into sheng siong. not that i dont like it. it's just... uhh a different feeling altogether. i would really greatly appreciate it if they put me back into ntuc. haha but thats clearly impossible now. oh well, i shall accept my fate and do my best for these eleven days. argh and the worse thing is i hate working alone! omg i cannot imagine how lonely and scared i will feel. courage, where is it?!?! LOL okay dumb..

anyway, went for the countdown party at vivo yesterday! okay it was plain silly of us to go down as early as 1pm in hope of chopping the best seats there but realised about two hours later that TICKETS ARE NEEDED -__- i seriously didnt know about this at all. and it was not mentioned anywhere previously. or did my cock eyes miss it somewhere. and we were actually the first few in the queue already. in front of us were ruien's fans i guess. we got stunned when we saw one of them holding the admission tickets. (anyway, F--K the cigarette smell from above. sorry but i really hate it whenever they smoke. it's damn suffocating :@ ) then we went to ask one of the organisers if there's any chance of us getting the tics. all he said was we can wait till the door opens and wait for the free tickets to be given out. so we left and went to shop instead. one of the soles of my PUMPS dropped off and i had to buy a new pair. this pair was really bought in haste. i walked around with it abit and started getting blisters all over already. so you can imagine me standing there at the countdown area for more than two hours with blisters all over. plus there are SOME people who kept stepping on my shoes. zzz ouch. we went to watch yesman first before heading over to the countdown area. the door was already opened by then. we were chased away by the fierce security guards and had to squeeze at another area which is far and at the back of the stage -_- heng we managed to get a better view when the guards started shouting that we can get free tickets and almost everyone pushed out to queue for the tics. we didnt though. haha. then we squeezed our way as front as possible. at first it was okay. then halfway through the show, some stupid aunties suddenly appeared behind us and started pushing us, trying to get to the front. me and liting were so pissed that we tried leaning on them and even blocked their view. haha serves them right for touching our backs and pushing -_- i almost fell can. then i grapped onto one of the guy's arm beside me and his girlfriend stared at me. zzz blame the aunties. and can you believe it, after awhile, the people in front of us left and the aunties just amazingly (or do you call it shockingly) appeared in front of us -___- i really wonder how they manage to squeeze from behind us to the front of us. i really just wanted to shove them away. really the ultimate auntie spirit man. tsk tsk. then it was their fault again when i failed to say hi to wanyin as i spotted her near me. they just pushed me away again. knn. nvm forget about them. at least i get to see alot of celebs! even though they looked very tiny from my side. haha but nvm at least i got to see all my favourites :D but too bad we didnt stay till the handshaking part. cos we had enough of getting pushed around already. lol. cabbed to liz's house and stayed over. slept for about five hours and went for breakfast at macs. haha. okay off to bathe and get ready for lunch cum dinner with the girls :)

anyway, HAPPY 2009 to all :D i really hope this year's a better year for me. i'd met with so many unfortunate events last year.

okay here's my new year wish: to be able to survive this month and especially this week. haha.